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autumn, ebay, edmonton, fall, friendship, fringe, jo-ann, season, summer, trevor, vancouver move, wind, winter
since i got back from my trip to england this summer i’ve found myself very contemplative. at first i thought it was just missing family after being surrounded by a plethora of relatives for three weeks but i soon realized that it is more than that. it’s a sense that this is my last winter in edmonton. my last 6 months basically to enjoy this city and the people that inhabit it.
i’m feeling very sentimental at the minute which is also a combination of the above mood and the changing season. i always get a bit sentimental and contemplative as summer gives way to autumn and that gives way to winter. i think it’s the sense that you can actually see time passing in a very real way but i’m not really sure. it’s windy today and i love the wind, it’s like a gusting change, forcing its way through you.
back to leaving edmonton, a warning to my friends: i have a feeling this is going to be a very melodramatic few months as i’m thinking of everything with a certain amount of finality. last dance, and all that. it’s strange, the more i come to terms with leaving edmonton, the more i realize how much i’ll miss it. that’s not to say that i’m not excited about moving, just that the more final that decision becomes, the more i have to deal with saying goodbye to people that are an important part of my life. i know the important ones will still be in my life, but things will obviously have to change. the other night i had a particularly reassuring phone call with jo-ann (and trevor by proxy) during which she was having an ebay crisis but i somehow remained totally involved in the whole thing over the phone line which we both later laughed about.
the other thing , and i never thought i’d say this, is that i’m actually going to miss the city of edmonton. i had never really appreciated edmonton as a city until this year when i spent the summer here. summer makes edmonton. the festivals, folk fest, fringe, the farmers market, and a genuine sense of community. i’m not sure that on a balance, the summer makes up for the winter, but i still now appreciate the city in which i’ve been residing on and of for the past 8 years.
six months to go and suddenly everything feels like an ending. sometimes i’m too dramaful for my own good. it’s probably jo-ann’s fault.